Time Flies.

Time Flies. 
Back to the time we first met each other. 
Introducing ourselves to our new friends. 
Started to get close to them.
And now they are those buddies that you can share secrets with. 

Time Flies. 
It's time to go through separate ways. 
We all have to choose the right and suitable path for ourselves. 
No longer meeting each other like what we used to at the past. 
But I do believe that the friendship won't fade away that easily. 

Time Flies. 
All those misunderstanding and hatreds should have been put down. 
Its time to accept the facts that people involved in it actually did something that already over other's limit. 
But too bad, people think they are always the right one. 

Time Flies. 
Used to hear some rumors that who is in love with who, who is falling for who. 
Well, secondary school love, I don't really believe in it.
But people, if someone hurts your feeling before, let's put down and move on.
Those times will turn out to be your memorable memories. 

Time Flies. 
I wish all the best for my best friends.
The one I loved,
The one I'm loving,
And maybe the one I will be love.
Each of them are so precious and can't be replaced by others.
I love you. =)
P.S: My last post before 2012 is officially over. 

DUDE!

People ah people, 

Mind your own business please.
Your life won't be better after you had criticized someone you hate.

Well.
One day you will make some mistakes in your life.

And people can do the same to you.

Please think of other's feeling before you decided to do something that might hurt him/her.

Without friends you are nothing dude. 

You think that the one you love will forever be yours?

Go and dream better.  

P.S: OH DAFUQ. 

Charming! ;)

Mood Swing recently.
Not too over but just a little bit.
Even me myself also don't really know the reason why. 

Maybe last time there's a lot of personal problems in my head.
And now I'm kinda enjoying my freedom?
I'm really free now, 

Mentally.

But I think my friends are somehow in troubles now.
Wanna help them so much but I can do nothing.

So yea,
Just MENTALLY support them.
Hope everything will goes well soon.
Hope everything will be better.
They are actually a perfect team, 

They do care each other very much,

But they don't know how to express their caring through actions.
They just keep on keeping their words in heart,
Just like they think they will know each other's mind SILENTLY.
Seriously,

There's no such thing unless they already be with each other like 10 years time.
Learn to tell the one you love what you really need,
What you really want,
What you really hope.
COUPLE is one kind of challenge.
A huge challenge.
You have to be super patient,
You have to always control your mind,
You have to always think about the one you love before doing anything.
Learn to forgive.

However,
I just think that I'm more suitable to be in single.
HAHAHA!
Although I love to be protect,
Love to be care of.
ANYWAY!
I got a new hobby!
Staring at someone I think he's quite good! =P
I hope to see him with her!
Please!
Talk to her more often! 

hahahaha! 

So that I can see their interaction! =D

P.S: He is really good looking! Especially when he smiles! =DDDDDDDDD

STILL ALIVE!

I NEED YOU,
BABY I'M NOT A MONSTER.
I think I'm sick,
I think I'm sick.
Long long time ago since I wrote the last post.
Guess you're no longer my worry.
'Can't live without you' is a lie.
a HUGE lie.
I live everyday before I had met you.
Well.
Honestly I didn't say that before. 

ALIVE TOUR IN MALAYSIA is what on my mind.
IT fully booked my mind!
I said before,
I will go whenever wherever it held on and at.
So YG has released the date.
OCTOBER 27!
Few days before SPM.
I think I gotta hardcore study before this day.
BIGBANG worth it!

I shall fall in love once again to continue my blogger.
HAHAHA!
Have no inspiration to start blogging these few days.
K-POP, K-DRAMA all the time.
I usually blogging only when I'm feeling down.
So,
I think I'm happy now. =)
Unlike last time,
Seriously,
Emotional to the max.
I just dislike that 'ME'.
I don't understand the 'ME'.
Atleast now I'm fine.

P.S: LIVE LIFE! NO REGRET!
        So attending Alive Tour in Malaysia is a MUST! ;)
        If not it will be a HUGE HUGE HUGE regret! 

No More Last Chance

Talk about you with my lovely darling.
A conclusion just pop out on my mind.
Without trying hard to figure out.
I think I'm used to what you are to me,
Used to the way you are.
Used to those things you give to me.
And now we are apart,
everything just disappear together with you.
No more special thingy happens in my life,
I think it's quite hard to accept in short time.
Without talking face-to-face for almost one and half year.

The feeling will fades slowly.

P.S: I have deleted all the messages from you that I save. 

        Everything related about you in my phone,
        I have deleted.
       

Blue heart.

Dream.
Is it the ending of the dream is what you are willing in real life?
And yet you can't get it.
It's been a long time since I dreamed about you.
I think it happened because of my two 'best' friends.
They just did something hilarious during tuition. 
And maybe because of the thing I heard.
I'm not sure that what I heard is what exactly happened. 
I don't know what kind of reaction you're showing.
But just,
I can't bear it.
I rather you treat me like a person you don't know.
Hmmm,
You actually treat a person you don't know nicer.
So yea,
Just treat me like how you always do.
Like seriously,
This topic is a tough lesson in my life.
Everytime I fall inside this endless deep hole,
I have to ask myself to climb up and stop thinking about it.
I don't really know the reason why we are apart from the beginning.
But I'm not going to figure out.
It's so tired.
I can't bear to face this problem again.
I'm a coward.
I admit.
At least,
I'm fine now.
But I haven put down yet.
So far.
I know it clearly.
If I already moved on,
I won't be avoiding you.
I won't be what I'm now.
I wonder,
if you are hurt like me.

14.03.2012

<3

Heard that my baby nephew has came to the world this morning when I woke up.
It's like finally.
He wanna come out and say HI to the world.
Everyone of this family is talking about this baby boy.
I think my niece just get jealous. 

hahaha..
Since everyone is putting attention on this new born baby.
Her face expression changes whenever we mention about her new born brother.
However,
The baby is sooooo cute! =D
He is 3.12KG heavy.
But he just looks extremely mini size to us.
Is it every babies have a pair of big eyes?
Since their faces are small~ =P
Anyway,
I'm gonna see him everyday.
Hope he is not that naughty~
If not,
Seriously,
ME, the aunt sure get headache again.

I love the way how my brother-in-law stays by my sis's side.
He stays at the hospital all the time to accompany my sis.
I think that's why my sis choose to marry him.
hahahaha..
Although he is not the best,
But he treats her as she is the best for him.
Care for her,
Although sometimes I just can't get used of his anger. =P
But can see easily,
He loves my sis.
And so to their kids.
=)

P.S: Happy Family~
        HuLalalalalla~ =D 

Love In The Air~

Everyone is talking about Valentine's Day.
Everyone is thinking whether to give present to the one they admire or not.
Everyone is wondering whether the person will like it or not.
And seems like teachers don't care about Form 5 students who are in a relationship now.
They are like just close one eye and let it be.
Since it's Form 5 now.
Valentine's Day.
A day for everyone to confess their feeling to the one that always on their minds. 
But what if the one is single?
Together Alone Day! =)
It sounds unfair to who that are single.
Some friends just decided to give each other present since they have no so called 'lover'.
There's pretty much couples in our school actually.
So,
I think Valentines' Day will be a fun day.
Seeing them give each other present,
It's actually kinda sweet! =)
Just hope that they will gain happiness from each other.
Valentine's Day definitely not my day.
HAHAHA.
I don't really think the day is that important.
Since I have no partner.
Kinda awkward,
It sounds like I'm jealous!
hahahaha!
But yea,
Just happy to see those couples smile. =)
 
P.S: Hope that everyone will always be happy,
        Not only just at Valentine's Day.
        =)

Live.

When someone else mentions about his name,
Everyone will automatically turns and look at me.
What are they expecting?
A sad face?
Or telling them,
Yea,
I still like him,
But we have been strange for 1 year plus.
From the close relationship till now.
Even we just standing in front of each other,
But just act like we din't see each other,
Continue talking with the one besides us,
Then walked pass.
Sometimes just curious about it,
Did he realizes I actually had stunned for a second?
Did he realizes I'm actually acting like I don't care?
I don't know.
What if the answer is NO?
It must be great.
Then atleast I can just give up easily.
Although I think I will stand and stood at the same point.
There's rarely hope or dream in real life now.
Hope just break easily.

Just telling myself,
I'm living for myself,
Not only for others.
Not like without you,
Then my life will become lightless.
Not like without you,
Everyday will be like in hell.
Maybe there's something changed in my life.
Maybe some of my habits just changed because of you.
Maybe there's always some shadows of you around me.
But yea,
You left me,
That's a fact.
No one can change it.
So,
Live Life! =D

Hope

Seldom share a new post everyday like mad nowadays.
Some feelings fading away slowly day by day.
Not going to live like a fool now.
Not gotta shed a fool of tears now.
Smile everyday no matter how tired.
Listen to song everyday like there's no tomorrow.
Form 5 is totally different when it compares to Form 4.
Endless homework waiting for us.
Everyone seems to turn more hardworking,
But I just go opposite.
I become more lazy.
Just hope that I can change my attitude sooooon.

Don't know whether the decision that I made is the right one or not.
But it's too late to change my mind.
We used to talk about this before.
But at the last year of our secondary school life,
I made it,
But the situation just kind of awkward.
It's actually good that you're not there,
I can sit more comfortable in the class.
I'm actually thinking,
Seems this year is the last year,
Why don't just put all the sad things away,
Friends that rarely talk after having some misunderstand,
Just forget about everything and be close again.
2 people who used to be in a relationship,
Just change the relationship to friendship.
Nothing is better than friendship seriously.
It can really last forever.
Wanna be a sweet friend to everyone I like,
Have a good image for each other in the last year.

When we turn more mature, 

Everything will goes right.
The way we think will become more rasional.
Don't because of anger, 

And spoil the situation.

God bless! =) 

Friendship V.S Relationship

Those promises that we made last time, do you still remember? 

Friendship is just too good to be true.
But what when there's someone who does not really treat you as a friend?
And you don't really know about the one,
Yet you can't trust the one with your heart.
Then something might happen.
Misunderstanding.
Like example,
She don't really know what kind of person are you.
She heard something from others,
Then slowly she will trusts it without asking the truth.
Soon there will be a distance between both of you.
You can't say anything although you know there's something goes wrong.
The best friend relationship turns to stranger.
No 'Hi' when you meet each other.
No smile on each other faces when they meet face to face.
No conversation.
No even eyes contact.
But when those things already turn true,
Either you wanna explain,
Or just keep quiet seeing your friend slowly close with another friend instead of you.

I dream to have a good relationship.
As in boy and girl.
A person who can at least take care of me,
A person who can see me at the corner instead of staring at those shiny girls.
A person who lend me his shoulder when I needed.
A person who I can put 100% effort on him or even more than that.
I seriously think you're the one who I can depend on.
Just right after all the bad things happened.
It's Form 5 now.
Everything just didn't goes right.
We are still remain the strange feeling.
How are you?
Survive in the first class I think it's not that difficult for you.
You just have to do your best and there will be a good results.
I know you can do it.
Just like what you told me last time.
I can do it if I want.
It's the last year we both staying in a same school.
After this year,
I don't think I have much time you see you.
I don't know what will happen to me,
I don't know what kind of feeling my heart will have.
But I know,
Now,
Atleast now,
I'm still looking at you from far far away.
Like I didn't.

P.S: I have my own ATM card today.
        My salary is inside!
        =D 

No Love.

Even though I think I can't live without you,

But when time passes day after day,
Time told me that I am able to do it.
Even though I think there's be no smile on my face without you,
But there's a lot of things are important for me that can make me smile.
Even though I think you're the only one who can relight the light in my eyes,
But when the relationship gone,
I know there's a lot of people who I can rely on.
Even though I think I will still stay by your side no matter what,
But when I realized how tired is it,
I think my heart are not strong enough to handle anything that can hurt me once more.A

I'm  wondering for the reason of the ending,
But I know there's no an answer for me,
Because I'm remaining silent.
I don't want to talk about this topic anymore.
Now I'm strong enough to not to cry for it anymore.
And I soon think this is not that much important for me anymore.
Without you,
The world is still running.
Without you,
The time still passes.
Without you,
The sky still remains blue.
Without you,
I think I'm fine now.
I think I get used to it now,
The world without you.

P.S: You were a part of my life.
        You are an amazing memories in my life.
        You will be a good friend if there's no relationship happened before.

It Will Rain

If you ever leave me, baby
Leave some morphine at my door
Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have
We don't have it anymore
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walking out the door
Cause there''ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
I'll never be your mother's favourite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eyes
If I was in their shoes
I'd be doing the same thing
Saying there goes my little girl
Walking with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand

Well little darling watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine
Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
Don't you say
Goodbye
Don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

Thank You!

Rusty! <3

Time passes so fast!
It's already 2 days after my birthday!
I love how they help me celebrate.
Really love you guys.
I love my mummy emmelin!
She actually secretly ask her dad to buy a cake for me.
And when she ask Ming out and talk to her.
I already guess it.
And I'm right! =P
We were still working that time.
Because her dad was busy.
Ai Ping Jie Jie bring the cake in and emme stunned.
Her surprise has gone!
Anyway~
It's time to back to home.
My mum actually ask me to invite friends to my house.
And so I did.
Just few of them.
Because it's too rush.
Don't feel like begging people come and attend.
Actually I was plan to watch Breaking Dawn on my birthday.
Because it released on the day.
But I think we are not able to book it.
So ended up sitting in my room watching Happy Tree Friends with them.
How funny is it! =)
But somehow I love it.
Everyone is around me when I thought I gotta celebrate it alone.

And they bought me a soft toy dog named Rusty.
What kind of weird name is it.
It doesn't look rusty either.
Hahahah.
But it's cute!
Thanks those 3 guys who went to Parade and brought it!
And right now I'm hugging it.
We play candles on that day.
How awkward isit.
Then the next day!
We work until lunch time.
Then head to pyramid.
With dress!
I told them to wear it!
And I wear a long skirt.
Girls outing!
Walk here walk there.
Searching for new shoes.
But still cant find it.
I gotta buy myself a pair of new shoes.

I swear!
I wanna a pair of new shoes!
My shoes spoil adi! =(
We plan to watch movie on another day!
So that's mean there's another chance to go out with my friends.
Thanks for everyone who wished me happy birthday!
Thanks for some people who actually bring me down these few days.
thanks for the lesson.
Not to rely on a person too much.
When the person leaving you slowly,
You have to hide you sadness and give them a smile instead.
I don't really wanna accept the truth.
But yea.

That is a truth.
I can't change it I think.

I so fed up that day.

P.S: Now only I realize we looks like some kind of monsters in someone's eyes.
        And maybe we are transparent?!
        I have no idea. 

Tattooed Dreams.

It's Saturday night.
It's a tired night.
After hearing some stories from other.
I fall inside my memories.
Without any reason,
I smile.
Although those are just a past.
All of them store right inside my heart.
Reminding myself not to turn back and look for them.
Then my life will be better.
Then my world will be brighter.
Then I'm able to hold back my tears.
I'm able to put back my smile.
But I know it,
I'm just avoiding the truth.
I don't wanna face the fact and yet do nothing.
So,
I decided to choose the stupid way.
Act.
I think I am good in doing it.
I think it's useful for me to forget the past.
Atleast it works now.
I don't think of those things often.
And yet the time I fall deep inside my thought is getting lesser.
I quit the world.
The complicated world.
I know I won't be a winner inside the world.
A person who care about herself more than other can't be winner.
Never ever will be the winner.
I gotta learn how to care for other more before I step in the world once again.
But the world is cruel.
The chance to feel happiness wont wait for you.
Time won't be stop for you.
And others' heart won't forever belongs to you.
Unless you treat them faithfully.
Treat them with your true heart.
Treat them with your whole life time.
Treat them like there's the most important things in your life.
If not,
Don't ever think everything will be yours forever.
Fly high,
Will fall without warning one day.
So,
Please treat everything truthfully.
Don't play with it.
Now I know.
But I think it's too late.

P.S: Dear,
      If I were able to think that way last time,
      I will never ever wanna hurt you.
      Even a little bit. 

Tired.

Finally,
I'm writing a new post! 

Have no time to blog these few days.
Was busy doing account folio.
And yet I done it on yesterday 2AM.
Thanks God.
I DONE IT!
It's torturing me.
Is currently working now.
Have to earn money and buy myself something.
Atleast I no need to ask money from my parents.
It's actually feeling good!
But it's quite tired to wake up early in the morning.
I still can't used to it.
But I think soon I will get used to it.
Have alot of thingy to do in the shop.
Everyone is busy doing at own position.
And we have to help to finish the work that they had gave us.
But it's actually much more better than standing at shopping mall.

Today went to school to take the RM100.
How cute that teacher is warning us not to simply use the money on other place.
And yet she said 'gong xi fa cai' to all chinese. 

hahaha!
Today is the last day of school.
Gotta wait for 2 months only can see them back in school.
I don't care!
Hahaha!
Gotta hardcore working in this holidays.
I am sooooo sleepy but don't feel like going to sleep. =/
No one gotta care of me like last time.

P.S: Super short post!
 

You Are The Apple Of My Eyes

Watched a movie today!!
The movie named <那些年，我们一起追的女孩>.
We had a difficulty to reach Subang Parade.
We spent almost 1 hour to reach there.
How awesome!
From my house to Suabang Parade we need almost 1 hour to reach there.
Thanks to the bus.
We wait and wait,
And finally a mini bus came to us.
But well,
We still can catch up before the movie start.
Somehow the movie got abit 18.
But after that the love story is quite nice.
After watching this movie,
It gives a lesson,
Never afraid to tell out your feeling,
And chance won't wait for you.
It will goes to a better person if you didn't hold it tight.
We don't really like the ending,
Because the male casts are not together!
The main girl cast married with another guy.
I love it because it's not like other love story,
Main casts sure be together at the end.
It's just like in real life,
Not everything have a happy ending.

P.S: I am afraid of tomorrow because of my account folio.
       I haven finish it.
       I have to let teacher check my documents!
       Wish me luck! =/

       Somehow the movie reminds me of you. 

Reality.

Sometimes just have nothing to do with those humans.
You know,
The words they told aren't truly what they thought in their hearts.
Just fake a smile,
Being nicely to someone they maybe hate,
Talking about something they don't really mean it.
Well.
We can't ask them to stop or being the real them also.
So just let them be.
Just think that it is a drama,
Cooperate with them and act with them.
Sometimes it's just awesome that you actually know what's on their mind,
But still seeing them acting in front of you.
This world is too complicated.
Even how smart are you,
You can't even figure out what is real what is fake recently.
If you are lucky,
Believe in the right thing,
Then congratz.
But if you are unlucky,
Believe in the wrong thing,
The wrong person,
Then just accept it with a smile.
Doesn't mean that you are stubborn,
It just an experience,
See clearly who's the fake one,
And who's the true friends.
Everyone sure wearing a mask when in the social circle.
Being innocent just making chances to let others hurt you.
That's why,
When a human reaches the period of teenager,
When we able to think with our own ways,
We started to build a wall between others.
Not letting others into our hearts that easily.
But once the wall break,
It means the person is trusting you,
Don't ever tease with it.
You will lose the TRUST once you play with it,
And it will just like a broken mirror,
Can't even fix those pieces back to the original look.
Nothing can help you after that.
Oh well.
I build a thick wall between me and others.
Not that I don't want to be friendly,
Just when you being hurt by others for many times,
The TRUST already gone.
It's not easy for me to think that you are truthfully good to me.
But some of them already have the ability to break the wall,
And I able to open my heart to them.
I am really glad I had found them.
Nothing else is better than it.
Seriously,
I really love you guys.
Alot,
Alot.

P.S: If we able to talk to each other like friend,
        How great will it be?
        But now I don't even have the courage to raise up my head and look at you.

Tablo the Rapper! =)

No no no no more tomorrow No no no no more tomorrow
You got someone's love, that doesn't mean that you have it
You keep walking, that doesn't mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn't mean you're alive
(chorus)
Baby there's no no tomorrow

I'm still exactly the same as then
The time stopped right at the last moment

However it's just the past to you
Baby there's no no no no more tomorrow
(till you come back everyday is yesterday)
Baby there's no no no no more (no more) tomorrow

(verse 1)
The memories which were tearing my heart apart

They're now ripped off the calendar
They're fading as the year goes by
I pretend to live forgetting you
My world is still same (only there's no you)
They're telling me that afterwards I will smile recalling the past
For me it's not even east to raise my head which was facing you
Why do they keep talking even though I don't even wanna hear them
I'm staying here
Don't say that tomorrow is the new day
(the morning will be darker than the night with you)
Don't say that after a storm comes the calm
(the calmness will be more anxious than the worries with you)
Everything is a mess
It's spring again to you but my season don't change
Even though my heart blossoms ( I've got no tomorrow)

(chorus)

(verse 2)
It's a dead smile which is empty inside
They say I look even better than when I with you
That they can stop worrying about me now
But I can't breathe
This smile can not deceive me (yeah)
I became normal
I emptied my heart a lot because it became a burden
I'm going crazy
Stop telling me your consoles because I don't want to heart them (please stop)
They say that the cure of love is another love
(the life will be same as if I'm dead every second) Yes
You got someone's love, that doesn't mean that you have it
You keep walking, that doesn't mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn't mean you are alive
Now I know that
No no no no more tomorrow 

(chorus)
Baby there's no no no no more tomorrow
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday

Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday

Tomorrow.

There's no more tomorrow,
Till you come back,
Everyday is yesterday.

I'm really gonna addicted to this song I think.
I'm waiting the audio or MV version release.
Somehow Table made a good choice to join YG.
YG gives a huge space for their artists to make their own song.
Anyway,
It's just a small episode.
Time passes so fast,
Tomorrow we have to return to school and having exam again.
Physics paper 3.
=/
I have no idea what to study for it although I know what's coming out.
What's the format for paper 3???
Alright,
I think I'm not going to give a damn to it.
Went to play basketball.
Somehow the rain is annoying.
I don't think you will come out since tomorrow you have two paper 3.
But well,
I saw the same old shirt.
It's you.
It's been a while my heart beats faster.
Just few seconds,
Then back to the normal me.
Play basketball under the rain.
What a cool thing that we both didn't talk to each other for so long time.
It gonna be one year plus.
I wonder how we make it.
But we made it.
We already used to it I think.
No word between us.
Although I will still know what's recently happened on you from others.
I wonder what had you did.
Nothing?
That's kind of heartache.
Well.
Now LOVE is less important for me.
Maybe because I have no LOVE?
I don't know.
I think there's a lot of things are important than it.

P.S: Not going to beg anything to help to make up the friendship between us.
       I know it ain't going to happen ever,
       In my life. </3