CRY.

I really don't know what are they thinking about.
Won't they feel hurt if they listen the same thing from me If they were me?
Can just like care of my feeling?
I am a HUMAN also!
I got FEELING!
Just scold whenever they like.
Don't you think that I don't wanna be a good girl?
It's just unfair!!!!!
So damn fucking unfair!
Whatever thing need to do then just call my name.
Am I a maid?
I know I should do it.
But just can't ask in a polite way?!
He no need to do anything But me?!
OMG!!!
I seriously feel like disappear now!
What for got good result?!
USELESS wat!
Just sleep during class.
Simply write for exam.
Then they can scold with those reasons.
TODAY I'M SO FREAKING PISSED!!
Because of HIM..
Because of THEM.
Serious shit!
The SUCKEST life ever!!! 

*# Y #*

I told you not to avoid.
But the one who avoiding now is me.
Don't you think I'm just crazy?
I stare at you,
When you turn to me, I look down.
My hand is shaking, my heartbeat become faster.
My mind blank out, and I scolding myself inside my heart.
Maybe I think too much, you are not looking at me.
Just I wish that you're.
I walk to another side, I look at another side.
Then suddenly,
Something come out on my mind.
I smile when you hug me like a kid.
I smile when you hold my hand.
I smile when you write those funny things inside my note book.
I smile when you don't know what to do after I make fun of you.
I smile when you try to count how many seconds I can stare at you.
I smile when you are bored during class and look at my side.
I smile when I ask for your help to complete my essay and you done it for me.

I smile after you play Wedding Dress in the middle of the call.
I smile when I heard the 3 words form you.

Still got alot alot alot.
Yea,
You make me smile easily.
And what I did is just breaking your heart.
I'm bad enough I think.
We were so close to each other.
Yea, 'were'.
We chat with each other till midnight.
We message each other till run out of credit.
We call each other everyday.
We stay together everyday.

 And now, all in fiction.

You must be happier than last time now.
Because no one break your heart again.
You can play with your bros without caring my feel anymore.
I dreamed a dream,
That you coming back to me.
The same dream repeat at another day.

But I know,
After I wake up, it was just a dream.
It's just I wish that you will come back to me.
I laugh at myself.
What a funny person in this world.

P.S: Can't you see? I'm still loving you.

       Because...
       I Love You.

frown, cry, chill, smile.

L.O.V.E

 

Don't you ever cry for a person who you like or love?

Don't you said the first 'I Love You' to the one you like or love? 

Don't you feel hurt when you know that the person is leaving you?

Don't you miss the scenes that U and the person inside smiling happily?

Don't you have the courage to let go when the person say it's time to split?

Will you give everything you had to the one you like or love?

Will you try to do anything just to make the one you like or love smile?

Will you wait for the person to call you and ask the person to put down the phone before you after the call?

Will you give the person a smile when you and him/her meet after a long time?

Don't you think LOVE is just complicated?

No one seems to know what is love.

Teenagers are too young to talk about love.

But how about adults?

Are they really do understand the real meaning of love and take the right action?

I don't think so.

It have different meaning from different mind.

For me,

Love is a tough lesson.

It contains sweet, sour, and bitter.

It can make you smile easily,

It let you shed your tears easily.

Just for no reason.

I don't really speak out 'LOVE' easily, even though to my family.

So it's difficult for me to say it out, even though I really mean it.

I care for the one I love's feeling secretly, but I don't know what to do when they sad.

I don't really like to talk, but I'm noisy with non-sense.

But when the person I love ask me what happened, I found a strength and release all my feeling towards him.

Acted too strong, actually just show that how weak are you.

I did it last time, and maybe now?

I need someone to care for me, hold me up and make me smile.

But everyone just leaving me further and further.

P.S: Please, at least treat me as your friend, don't act cold in front of me. I'm sick of it and can't stand for it anymore. You smile to my friends, but how about me? I'm just a stranger who you liked before? Nothing more?

Black Rose with thorns, just too far yet too close.