U and I

I feel like I'm doing something really stupid.
I can't figure out what's the meaning behind the thing I did.
I'm just throwing a stone on my foots.
SPLIT.
I do know what's the meaning.
Everything should be end. No more chance. No more dream.
That's the ending I made, I think.
But what for I still standing at the same position?
I saw you, I feel happy, and also sad.
Happy that you still around me.
Sad that you are not being with me anymore.
Do you know that?
I search for you everyday.
I felt like crying when I don't know anything about you,
and yet I have to know from others.
My tears just can't stop now.
It's long time since I cry so hard.
I really can't control myself now.
These few months, I feel like dying.
Everyday doing the same thing again and again.
I tell myself.
I can move on. I can move on.
But I still not moving even though just one little step.
I don't wanna to move on.
How can the gap bewteen you and me become so far now?
I smiling and click your name.
I brave enough to enter.
But I end up tearing in the middle of the dark night.
I fall so deep.
All I can see is darkness.
Why?
I don't wanna memories.
It's just killing me once and once again.
I don't want anything now.
Please just take all away from my life.
P.S: I do still have the feeling towards you.I don'want the situation we facing now. I don't wan't to force myself again. I don't want. I'm so tired.

Black & White

30 seconds,

During the 30 seconds, a lot of things can happen.

Maybe miracle happens, thing goes on and it surprises you.

Maybe sadness occurs, you will never ever want to keep it in you mind.

Or maybe nothing will happen, just remain the same.

But during the 30 seconds, I can feel my heartbeat, I'm still alive.

It makes my day. Even though I still having exam.

Can't imagine that I smiling when I walked back to my class.

Being a human, I'm lost.

I don't really know what I want, what I need.

Someone told me, give me advices, but I ignore it.

Maybe I'm afraid, or maybe I don't want to step out of my own world.

A black and white world, fulfill with memories, negative and pointless.

Seeing others, their world are full of colour and wonderful.

How about mine?

I think it still waiting someone to fill in the colour.

I don't really understand what's the point of smiling now.

I smile when everyone laugh,

I expressionless when they smile.

HaHa, what's goes wrong now?

I do smile a lot at school, when I be with my friends.

But when i come home, smile leave me.

I don't know what to do.

So, I keep on finding something to attract me.

At least I won't be so lifeless.

I need a strength to lift me up.

Anyway, I'm not negative-minded. =)

P.S: Cheong Pei Ling, Ms awesome! Get well soon! My darling.. hahahha.. I do still wanna hang out with you!!! =)

EXAM! XD

Having some suffer time during exam.
Although I don't have the mood to study for it,
But still need to flip the book for awhile, let some words and formulas absorb in my brain.
When I got the paper, my mind totally blank out.
SO! It's time to simply circle answers and write out acceptable answers.
I can't imagine the time when I know my results, most probably will heart attack. =P
No more good results I think. =(
Good student is hard to be. =) So, I choose to be a lazy student.
Been distracted by the computer, so I can't even concentrate to study for exam.
But! LIKE I CARE.
I just hope the exam end as soon as possible.
So i able to play and have fun during holidays with my dearest friends.
So many plan to go.
Many place, trip, even gathering also. =D
I can't wait for it now!
Let's forget about the results and have fun!
=DDDDD
P.S: Still got 2 more days to go. Chinese paper was hard like shit! The teacher become a liar again. She said it is easy. ><