Tablo the Rapper! =)

No no no no more tomorrow No no no no more tomorrow
You got someone's love, that doesn't mean that you have it
You keep walking, that doesn't mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn't mean you're alive
(chorus)
Baby there's no no tomorrow

I'm still exactly the same as then
The time stopped right at the last moment

However it's just the past to you
Baby there's no no no no more tomorrow
(till you come back everyday is yesterday)
Baby there's no no no no more (no more) tomorrow

(verse 1)
The memories which were tearing my heart apart

They're now ripped off the calendar
They're fading as the year goes by
I pretend to live forgetting you
My world is still same (only there's no you)
They're telling me that afterwards I will smile recalling the past
For me it's not even east to raise my head which was facing you
Why do they keep talking even though I don't even wanna hear them
I'm staying here
Don't say that tomorrow is the new day
(the morning will be darker than the night with you)
Don't say that after a storm comes the calm
(the calmness will be more anxious than the worries with you)
Everything is a mess
It's spring again to you but my season don't change
Even though my heart blossoms ( I've got no tomorrow)

(chorus)

(verse 2)
It's a dead smile which is empty inside
They say I look even better than when I with you
That they can stop worrying about me now
But I can't breathe
This smile can not deceive me (yeah)
I became normal
I emptied my heart a lot because it became a burden
I'm going crazy
Stop telling me your consoles because I don't want to heart them (please stop)
They say that the cure of love is another love
(the life will be same as if I'm dead every second) Yes
You got someone's love, that doesn't mean that you have it
You keep walking, that doesn't mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn't mean you are alive
Now I know that
No no no no more tomorrow 

(chorus)
Baby there's no no no no more tomorrow
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday

Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday

Tomorrow.

There's no more tomorrow,
Till you come back,
Everyday is yesterday.

I'm really gonna addicted to this song I think.
I'm waiting the audio or MV version release.
Somehow Table made a good choice to join YG.
YG gives a huge space for their artists to make their own song.
Anyway,
It's just a small episode.
Time passes so fast,
Tomorrow we have to return to school and having exam again.
Physics paper 3.
=/
I have no idea what to study for it although I know what's coming out.
What's the format for paper 3???
Alright,
I think I'm not going to give a damn to it.
Went to play basketball.
Somehow the rain is annoying.
I don't think you will come out since tomorrow you have two paper 3.
But well,
I saw the same old shirt.
It's you.
It's been a while my heart beats faster.
Just few seconds,
Then back to the normal me.
Play basketball under the rain.
What a cool thing that we both didn't talk to each other for so long time.
It gonna be one year plus.
I wonder how we make it.
But we made it.
We already used to it I think.
No word between us.
Although I will still know what's recently happened on you from others.
I wonder what had you did.
Nothing?
That's kind of heartache.
Well.
Now LOVE is less important for me.
Maybe because I have no LOVE?
I don't know.
I think there's a lot of things are important than it.

P.S: Not going to beg anything to help to make up the friendship between us.
       I know it ain't going to happen ever,
       In my life. </3

A Wish.

Confession.
I'm recently addicted to this song.
I love the feeling of this song.
Alright.
I realize.
I slowly turn back to the past ME.
The one who don't really talk when everyone is talking happily.
The one who choose to listen instead of talking.
I realize.
I'm actually a kind of play girl.
While still loving a guy.
I think of other.
Just in a short moment.
Because I miss the feeling.
The kind of feeling that being treat really good.
And yet I found someone that can really let me feel that way.
But I know.
We both are just friends.
Nothing more will happens.
We both are just needed someone who truly care of us.
It takes me awhile to wake up from it.
After knowing it's a wrong thing.
I started avoid and maintain a friend distance between us.
Somehow they both are same at some area.
They both can make me smile.
They both can make me forget about the sad things.
But ended up they always turn to be the sad things in my life.
I'm really sick and tired of it.
But I know.
The second one.
It's a image of the first one.
The same type.

You won.
You are the winner of this game.
I'm the loser.
I lost my mind.
I lost the myself.
And why don't you just end the game up?
Tell me,
You have no any feeling anymore.
Then everything will be alright.
Maybe I will cry.
Maybe I will turn silent for awhile.
But I think after that I will be okie.
The ME will come back.
And I think I'm able to live even though you are not here.
And same to you also.
Because it's secondary school like/love.
After the end of our secondary school life,
You're able to meet someone much more better.
I will continue to have my meaningful but lifeless life.

Complicated.

''Once upon the time~ 

A girl who fed up on the people around her,

Met a guy. 

And finally,

They love each other and have a happy ending.''

That's what most of the story start and end by.
What a sweet happy ending right?
But does it really happens in real life?
Is it so easy to love each other and live together forever?

Maybe for a part of people it is.

But when facing the problems of jealous, money and fame,
It's hard to maintain the percentage of love.
I love to see an old couple hand with hand walking together.
It's seems like we can believe that we able to find our true love in a long life.
Some people are just mistakes in our life.
Don't think it's so wrong to fall for them,
They help you to gain experiences.
The experiences to help you to find a better person.
Always appreciate the one who stay by your side.
Because humans are greedy.
Humans always want to have the one they can't get.
Soon they will ignore the one who silently stand besides them.
After getting hurt by the wrong one,
Only realize and turn to the one who still by their sides.
This is human's personality.
Human with attentions need more attentions.
Human who are popular can't stand for the loneliness.
Human with love need more love from everyone,
Even though from the one who she/he don't truly love.
In conclusion,
Human is unpredictable.
Somehow human is dangerous also.
You won't know what's the meaning behind the smile.
You won't know whether they will betray you anot.
But once you fall in love with the one,
Everything about the one is all so right and perfect.
That's why,
LOVE IS BLIND.


P.S: Friendship and Relationship are both important.
       But you have to learn to balance both of it in your life.

The Reason.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is You
And the reason is You
And the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is You


P.S: I remember last time you ask me listen to this song.
       But now the feeling when I listen to it is totally different.
       I'm not a perfect person.
       I never meant to do those things to you.
      Seriously.   

When The Door Closes.

When the door closes,
Nothing can even break your heart.
Just you still hoping for the thing you want,
And yet you let it able to hurt you.

When the door closes,
You can't treat a person truthfully.
Because you love yourself more than others.
And yet the person have no key to open the door.

When the door closes,
Happiness won't stay by your side.
Because you locked yourself inside your wolrd.
You can't see the world outside.

When the door closes,
Even though you have a brunch of friends,
You will still feel alone.
Because you think that no one know what's on your mind.

When the door closes,
Every single happy thing in your life,
All will automatically turn invisible.
Because you already lock your soul deep inside your heart.

Think twice before you make a decision.
Once you made the decision,
Don't regret and don't blame anyone,
Because you choose the way.
Because you choose to close the door of your heart.

P.S: I don't feel like disturbing your life,
        I will wish you all the best.
       Atleast now let me stand at a side and look at you.
       You ask why I act so strange,
       But you know,
       It's actually hurting myself.

Flash Back.

As usual,
We're still having our finals.
Today is math paper.
Alright,
Since it is math,
I think I'm able to score it.
Just I don't think I will get high marks.
But who cares.
After double checking for the answers.
I lay on my table and planning to sleep.
But when I close my eyes,
I think of a question.
Today I rarely saw him.
Just once? or maybe twice?
I'm not sure.
I try to throw this question out of my mind and continue to sleep.
Everything just like a video after I close my eyes again,
Flash back slowly and clearly.
Start from the happy moments,
Then the sad moments.
And slowly it backs to the time when we two were still friends.
The friendship between us,
It's not like other.
It's special atleast for me.
Alot of scenes my brain and heart bring me back to.
They are laughing and playing happily.
By any chance,
Things will go back to the beginning after went through everything?
Does a time machine really exists?
Is it really can someone goes back to the past and changes the ending?
I think those only happen in movie or novel.
Everything just go through one-cut.
Nothing such as IF actually.
Because you can't even back to the beginning.
All you have it's just chances to change the future.
It's easy to tell others to try and get a chance,
But when it comes to you,
You won't,
You can't do anything.
Because you will afraid of the ending is not the one you're hoping.
Because you will afraid of the pain of broken heart, once again.
Because you have no courage to do it.
Because your heart already die a little bit inside.
Maybe for outsiders,
Those are just excuses.
But when you're the one who are suffering,
You'll know.
The feeling.

P.S: Is it good nor bad when I'm thinking about you, inside my heart is peaceful?
        Instead of feeling sad or disappointed, I smile.
        Don't let those sad memories cover your happy memories.
        It's not worth.
       Think of the good memories, forgive about the sad one,
       And soon you'll know,
       Actually you earn happiness.
       =) 

IF

There is nothing to do with FATE now.
It's not that easy to make someone truthfully believe in it right.
I can actually smell the freedom now.
Hmm..
slightly?
Although I'm still keeping something in my heart.
But I plan to store it truly deep inside my heart.
As a memorable time.
As a good experience.
It's actually a beautiful memories for me.
If there's not that much tearful timing.
Maybe it's been a few days I din't see you.
Actually I'm not that easily to fall in my own world now.
But I can't make sure this situation will remains if I see you again.
I wish it will remains.
Atleast please,
Remains a little bit?

Alright,
Don't feel like writing about him now.
It's totally a mood spoiler.
Anyway,
We went to Mcdonalds A.K.A my second home again.
I seriously have no mood to study.
I don't know why.
I just don't have the feeling that I might in trouble if I din't study.
I don't care.
Blah.
Things will turn right when there's no left. =P
What sentence is this? hahahahaha
It's 4am now.
And I am still awake and blogging.
How awesome huh..
Exam please faster over.
I wanna go out with my friends and have fun.
It's holidays after exam! =)

P.S: Nothing can stop us, it's just you make it possible to stop you.
        I wanna nothing now, just give me back my happiness. =)

Lucky.

Okie!
Let's start with some happy things.

I realize my blog always start with something sad.
I mean all about sad things.
We went to Mcdonalds to have a group study?
Somehow we planning to reach there by 7.
But ended up we reach there after one hour the time we expect.
We are all very hungry.
So we buy a dinner box.
And we had fun eating and chatting more than study there!

hahahaa.. =)
It's actually awesome! =D
Although just few of us gather together and playing, laughing.
There's actually some funny parts.
But just I can't clearly write out.
HAHAHA!
Alright.
It's time to back to my own mood.
Thought of something.
Atleast until end of this year.
I should put down the feeling already.
Don't feel like continue it.
It seems like useless except from making me down.
This relationship will never get back like what it looks like last time.

Even though there's a chance to get back,
I will kindly reject it also.
I know it clearly.
It will never be a success relationship.
Get back together then?
I hurt him once again.
I get hurt once again.
Not talking to each other again.
Even at the same area,
Act like we don't know each other.
I am so sick of this.
I don't want all the same damn things happen again.
I don't want to be a bad girl again.
It's kinda tiring.
So let's just be normal friend.
Then one day when you find a girl,
Who much more better than me,
Who much more suits you,
I will wish you all the best I can.
It's kinda good to see you happy and smiling.
Maybe that can atleast reduce my sorry for hurting you.
It sounds like I'm really selfish.
Well,
I am I think.
Really do appreciate what you had done to me.
Really do love those memories you had created.
Really do miss the time we play together.
Really do want to talk to you without any awkwardness.
Just like friend.

It's may be too tired to remain the current situation.
Both of us are suffering.
Or maybe just me.
And yea!
Thanks to my ah dear.
Hahahaha!
I guess you should know who i'm talking about when you read this.
You really help me alot.
Seriously.
I can slowly put down I think it's because of you.
I will payback when you need it!
=D

P.S:Lee Xing Yee,
       Atleast stop avoiding him,
       Look at him when he is around you,
      Give a smile to him like what you always do to your friends.
      Stop making those weird atmosphere between you and him.
      You and him are nothing now.
      So yea,
      One day he will meet a girl.
      One day you can also meet a boy.
      Wish each other all the best.

My second home! =)