Flash Back.

As usual,
We're still having our finals.
Today is math paper.
Alright,
Since it is math,
I think I'm able to score it.
Just I don't think I will get high marks.
But who cares.
After double checking for the answers.
I lay on my table and planning to sleep.
But when I close my eyes,
I think of a question.
Today I rarely saw him.
Just once? or maybe twice?
I'm not sure.
I try to throw this question out of my mind and continue to sleep.
Everything just like a video after I close my eyes again,
Flash back slowly and clearly.
Start from the happy moments,
Then the sad moments.
And slowly it backs to the time when we two were still friends.
The friendship between us,
It's not like other.
It's special atleast for me.
Alot of scenes my brain and heart bring me back to.
They are laughing and playing happily.
By any chance,
Things will go back to the beginning after went through everything?
Does a time machine really exists?
Is it really can someone goes back to the past and changes the ending?
I think those only happen in movie or novel.
Everything just go through one-cut.
Nothing such as IF actually.
Because you can't even back to the beginning.
All you have it's just chances to change the future.
It's easy to tell others to try and get a chance,
But when it comes to you,
You won't,
You can't do anything.
Because you will afraid of the ending is not the one you're hoping.
Because you will afraid of the pain of broken heart, once again.
Because you have no courage to do it.
Because your heart already die a little bit inside.
Maybe for outsiders,
Those are just excuses.
But when you're the one who are suffering,
You'll know.
The feeling.

P.S: Is it good nor bad when I'm thinking about you, inside my heart is peaceful?
        Instead of feeling sad or disappointed, I smile.
        Don't let those sad memories cover your happy memories.
        It's not worth.
       Think of the good memories, forgive about the sad one,
       And soon you'll know,
       Actually you earn happiness.
       =)