Friendship V.S Relationship

Those promises that we made last time, do you still remember? 

Friendship is just too good to be true.
But what when there's someone who does not really treat you as a friend?
And you don't really know about the one,
Yet you can't trust the one with your heart.
Then something might happen.
Misunderstanding.
Like example,
She don't really know what kind of person are you.
She heard something from others,
Then slowly she will trusts it without asking the truth.
Soon there will be a distance between both of you.
You can't say anything although you know there's something goes wrong.
The best friend relationship turns to stranger.
No 'Hi' when you meet each other.
No smile on each other faces when they meet face to face.
No conversation.
No even eyes contact.
But when those things already turn true,
Either you wanna explain,
Or just keep quiet seeing your friend slowly close with another friend instead of you.

I dream to have a good relationship.
As in boy and girl.
A person who can at least take care of me,
A person who can see me at the corner instead of staring at those shiny girls.
A person who lend me his shoulder when I needed.
A person who I can put 100% effort on him or even more than that.
I seriously think you're the one who I can depend on.
Just right after all the bad things happened.
It's Form 5 now.
Everything just didn't goes right.
We are still remain the strange feeling.
How are you?
Survive in the first class I think it's not that difficult for you.
You just have to do your best and there will be a good results.
I know you can do it.
Just like what you told me last time.
I can do it if I want.
It's the last year we both staying in a same school.
After this year,
I don't think I have much time you see you.
I don't know what will happen to me,
I don't know what kind of feeling my heart will have.
But I know,
Now,
Atleast now,
I'm still looking at you from far far away.
Like I didn't.

P.S: I have my own ATM card today.
        My salary is inside!
        =D 

No Love.

Even though I think I can't live without you,

But when time passes day after day,
Time told me that I am able to do it.
Even though I think there's be no smile on my face without you,
But there's a lot of things are important for me that can make me smile.
Even though I think you're the only one who can relight the light in my eyes,
But when the relationship gone,
I know there's a lot of people who I can rely on.
Even though I think I will still stay by your side no matter what,
But when I realized how tired is it,
I think my heart are not strong enough to handle anything that can hurt me once more.A

I'm  wondering for the reason of the ending,
But I know there's no an answer for me,
Because I'm remaining silent.
I don't want to talk about this topic anymore.
Now I'm strong enough to not to cry for it anymore.
And I soon think this is not that much important for me anymore.
Without you,
The world is still running.
Without you,
The time still passes.
Without you,
The sky still remains blue.
Without you,
I think I'm fine now.
I think I get used to it now,
The world without you.

P.S: You were a part of my life.
        You are an amazing memories in my life.
        You will be a good friend if there's no relationship happened before.

It Will Rain

If you ever leave me, baby
Leave some morphine at my door
Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have
We don't have it anymore
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walking out the door
Cause there''ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
I'll never be your mother's favourite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eyes
If I was in their shoes
I'd be doing the same thing
Saying there goes my little girl
Walking with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand

Well little darling watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine
Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
Don't you say
Goodbye
Don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain