Thank You!

Rusty! <3

Time passes so fast!
It's already 2 days after my birthday!
I love how they help me celebrate.
Really love you guys.
I love my mummy emmelin!
She actually secretly ask her dad to buy a cake for me.
And when she ask Ming out and talk to her.
I already guess it.
And I'm right! =P
We were still working that time.
Because her dad was busy.
Ai Ping Jie Jie bring the cake in and emme stunned.
Her surprise has gone!
Anyway~
It's time to back to home.
My mum actually ask me to invite friends to my house.
And so I did.
Just few of them.
Because it's too rush.
Don't feel like begging people come and attend.
Actually I was plan to watch Breaking Dawn on my birthday.
Because it released on the day.
But I think we are not able to book it.
So ended up sitting in my room watching Happy Tree Friends with them.
How funny is it! =)
But somehow I love it.
Everyone is around me when I thought I gotta celebrate it alone.

And they bought me a soft toy dog named Rusty.
What kind of weird name is it.
It doesn't look rusty either.
Hahahah.
But it's cute!
Thanks those 3 guys who went to Parade and brought it!
And right now I'm hugging it.
We play candles on that day.
How awkward isit.
Then the next day!
We work until lunch time.
Then head to pyramid.
With dress!
I told them to wear it!
And I wear a long skirt.
Girls outing!
Walk here walk there.
Searching for new shoes.
But still cant find it.
I gotta buy myself a pair of new shoes.

I swear!
I wanna a pair of new shoes!
My shoes spoil adi! =(
We plan to watch movie on another day!
So that's mean there's another chance to go out with my friends.
Thanks for everyone who wished me happy birthday!
Thanks for some people who actually bring me down these few days.
thanks for the lesson.
Not to rely on a person too much.
When the person leaving you slowly,
You have to hide you sadness and give them a smile instead.
I don't really wanna accept the truth.
But yea.

That is a truth.
I can't change it I think.

I so fed up that day.

P.S: Now only I realize we looks like some kind of monsters in someone's eyes.
        And maybe we are transparent?!
        I have no idea. 

Tattooed Dreams.

It's Saturday night.
It's a tired night.
After hearing some stories from other.
I fall inside my memories.
Without any reason,
I smile.
Although those are just a past.
All of them store right inside my heart.
Reminding myself not to turn back and look for them.
Then my life will be better.
Then my world will be brighter.
Then I'm able to hold back my tears.
I'm able to put back my smile.
But I know it,
I'm just avoiding the truth.
I don't wanna face the fact and yet do nothing.
So,
I decided to choose the stupid way.
Act.
I think I am good in doing it.
I think it's useful for me to forget the past.
Atleast it works now.
I don't think of those things often.
And yet the time I fall deep inside my thought is getting lesser.
I quit the world.
The complicated world.
I know I won't be a winner inside the world.
A person who care about herself more than other can't be winner.
Never ever will be the winner.
I gotta learn how to care for other more before I step in the world once again.
But the world is cruel.
The chance to feel happiness wont wait for you.
Time won't be stop for you.
And others' heart won't forever belongs to you.
Unless you treat them faithfully.
Treat them with your true heart.
Treat them with your whole life time.
Treat them like there's the most important things in your life.
If not,
Don't ever think everything will be yours forever.
Fly high,
Will fall without warning one day.
So,
Please treat everything truthfully.
Don't play with it.
Now I know.
But I think it's too late.

P.S: Dear,
      If I were able to think that way last time,
      I will never ever wanna hurt you.
      Even a little bit. 

Tired.

Finally,
I'm writing a new post! 

Have no time to blog these few days.
Was busy doing account folio.
And yet I done it on yesterday 2AM.
Thanks God.
I DONE IT!
It's torturing me.
Is currently working now.
Have to earn money and buy myself something.
Atleast I no need to ask money from my parents.
It's actually feeling good!
But it's quite tired to wake up early in the morning.
I still can't used to it.
But I think soon I will get used to it.
Have alot of thingy to do in the shop.
Everyone is busy doing at own position.
And we have to help to finish the work that they had gave us.
But it's actually much more better than standing at shopping mall.

Today went to school to take the RM100.
How cute that teacher is warning us not to simply use the money on other place.
And yet she said 'gong xi fa cai' to all chinese. 

hahaha!
Today is the last day of school.
Gotta wait for 2 months only can see them back in school.
I don't care!
Hahaha!
Gotta hardcore working in this holidays.
I am sooooo sleepy but don't feel like going to sleep. =/
No one gotta care of me like last time.

P.S: Super short post!
 

You Are The Apple Of My Eyes

Watched a movie today!!
The movie named <那些年，我们一起追的女孩>.
We had a difficulty to reach Subang Parade.
We spent almost 1 hour to reach there.
How awesome!
From my house to Suabang Parade we need almost 1 hour to reach there.
Thanks to the bus.
We wait and wait,
And finally a mini bus came to us.
But well,
We still can catch up before the movie start.
Somehow the movie got abit 18.
But after that the love story is quite nice.
After watching this movie,
It gives a lesson,
Never afraid to tell out your feeling,
And chance won't wait for you.
It will goes to a better person if you didn't hold it tight.
We don't really like the ending,
Because the male casts are not together!
The main girl cast married with another guy.
I love it because it's not like other love story,
Main casts sure be together at the end.
It's just like in real life,
Not everything have a happy ending.

P.S: I am afraid of tomorrow because of my account folio.
       I haven finish it.
       I have to let teacher check my documents!
       Wish me luck! =/

       Somehow the movie reminds me of you. 

Reality.

Sometimes just have nothing to do with those humans.
You know,
The words they told aren't truly what they thought in their hearts.
Just fake a smile,
Being nicely to someone they maybe hate,
Talking about something they don't really mean it.
Well.
We can't ask them to stop or being the real them also.
So just let them be.
Just think that it is a drama,
Cooperate with them and act with them.
Sometimes it's just awesome that you actually know what's on their mind,
But still seeing them acting in front of you.
This world is too complicated.
Even how smart are you,
You can't even figure out what is real what is fake recently.
If you are lucky,
Believe in the right thing,
Then congratz.
But if you are unlucky,
Believe in the wrong thing,
The wrong person,
Then just accept it with a smile.
Doesn't mean that you are stubborn,
It just an experience,
See clearly who's the fake one,
And who's the true friends.
Everyone sure wearing a mask when in the social circle.
Being innocent just making chances to let others hurt you.
That's why,
When a human reaches the period of teenager,
When we able to think with our own ways,
We started to build a wall between others.
Not letting others into our hearts that easily.
But once the wall break,
It means the person is trusting you,
Don't ever tease with it.
You will lose the TRUST once you play with it,
And it will just like a broken mirror,
Can't even fix those pieces back to the original look.
Nothing can help you after that.
Oh well.
I build a thick wall between me and others.
Not that I don't want to be friendly,
Just when you being hurt by others for many times,
The TRUST already gone.
It's not easy for me to think that you are truthfully good to me.
But some of them already have the ability to break the wall,
And I able to open my heart to them.
I am really glad I had found them.
Nothing else is better than it.
Seriously,
I really love you guys.
Alot,
Alot.

P.S: If we able to talk to each other like friend,
        How great will it be?
        But now I don't even have the courage to raise up my head and look at you.

Tablo the Rapper! =)

No no no no more tomorrow No no no no more tomorrow
You got someone's love, that doesn't mean that you have it
You keep walking, that doesn't mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn't mean you're alive
(chorus)
Baby there's no no tomorrow

I'm still exactly the same as then
The time stopped right at the last moment

However it's just the past to you
Baby there's no no no no more tomorrow
(till you come back everyday is yesterday)
Baby there's no no no no more (no more) tomorrow

(verse 1)
The memories which were tearing my heart apart

They're now ripped off the calendar
They're fading as the year goes by
I pretend to live forgetting you
My world is still same (only there's no you)
They're telling me that afterwards I will smile recalling the past
For me it's not even east to raise my head which was facing you
Why do they keep talking even though I don't even wanna hear them
I'm staying here
Don't say that tomorrow is the new day
(the morning will be darker than the night with you)
Don't say that after a storm comes the calm
(the calmness will be more anxious than the worries with you)
Everything is a mess
It's spring again to you but my season don't change
Even though my heart blossoms ( I've got no tomorrow)

(chorus)

(verse 2)
It's a dead smile which is empty inside
They say I look even better than when I with you
That they can stop worrying about me now
But I can't breathe
This smile can not deceive me (yeah)
I became normal
I emptied my heart a lot because it became a burden
I'm going crazy
Stop telling me your consoles because I don't want to heart them (please stop)
They say that the cure of love is another love
(the life will be same as if I'm dead every second) Yes
You got someone's love, that doesn't mean that you have it
You keep walking, that doesn't mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn't mean you are alive
Now I know that
No no no no more tomorrow 

(chorus)
Baby there's no no no no more tomorrow
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday

Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday
Till you comeback Everyday is yesterday

Tomorrow.

There's no more tomorrow,
Till you come back,
Everyday is yesterday.

I'm really gonna addicted to this song I think.
I'm waiting the audio or MV version release.
Somehow Table made a good choice to join YG.
YG gives a huge space for their artists to make their own song.
Anyway,
It's just a small episode.
Time passes so fast,
Tomorrow we have to return to school and having exam again.
Physics paper 3.
=/
I have no idea what to study for it although I know what's coming out.
What's the format for paper 3???
Alright,
I think I'm not going to give a damn to it.
Went to play basketball.
Somehow the rain is annoying.
I don't think you will come out since tomorrow you have two paper 3.
But well,
I saw the same old shirt.
It's you.
It's been a while my heart beats faster.
Just few seconds,
Then back to the normal me.
Play basketball under the rain.
What a cool thing that we both didn't talk to each other for so long time.
It gonna be one year plus.
I wonder how we make it.
But we made it.
We already used to it I think.
No word between us.
Although I will still know what's recently happened on you from others.
I wonder what had you did.
Nothing?
That's kind of heartache.
Well.
Now LOVE is less important for me.
Maybe because I have no LOVE?
I don't know.
I think there's a lot of things are important than it.

P.S: Not going to beg anything to help to make up the friendship between us.
       I know it ain't going to happen ever,
       In my life. </3