I Miss You.

Just look at you, quietly. 

These few days live like a dead man.

Sleep late, wake up late, on computer, then basketball.
Actually don't feel like playing too much,
Just sit at there better than stay at home.
I mean atleast there still got friends.
Because of basketball,
I get to know some new friends.
Basketball friends.
But all are boy. LOL ><
But not bad wat, atleast they treat me as a friend.
They talk to me, try to make me smile.
Unlike the super awkward relationship between me and you.
I admit it,
I go to basketball not only just want to release my stress.
But also see whether there's a little chance to get to see you.
But I will turn emo after that.
WHAT THE SMURF!!!
I really really hate myself.
Can't even control myself.
What's going on right now?
I tot I want to give up?
I tot I WANT to be friend with him?
I tot I can do it by just ignore everything about him?
All thoughts are just thought.
It will never comes true I know actually.
It just like a kind of sentence which I try to use it to convince myself I CAN DO IT.
But who knows,
Maybe until Form 5 ends,
I still can't move on?
Wow, that must be sad.
Really sad.
I don't care anymore.
I don't want to make any effort for it anymore.
It just makes me feel tired and tired.
So just, time will tell I hope.
Or maybe you will tell?
I really hope so.
I rather you say let's be stranger than be friend.
You know right,
I won't think that you're only my friend,
Nothing others than friend.

P.S: Please, I know I'm a coward, I don't dare to tell out everything in my heart that I want to tell you so much, I don't dare to tell you that I don't want us to be only friend. Because I know it, I have no right. I'm not the right person for you I think.