14.03.2012

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Heard that my baby nephew has came to the world this morning when I woke up.
It's like finally.
He wanna come out and say HI to the world.
Everyone of this family is talking about this baby boy.
I think my niece just get jealous. 

hahaha..
Since everyone is putting attention on this new born baby.
Her face expression changes whenever we mention about her new born brother.
However,
The baby is sooooo cute! =D
He is 3.12KG heavy.
But he just looks extremely mini size to us.
Is it every babies have a pair of big eyes?
Since their faces are small~ =P
Anyway,
I'm gonna see him everyday.
Hope he is not that naughty~
If not,
Seriously,
ME, the aunt sure get headache again.

I love the way how my brother-in-law stays by my sis's side.
He stays at the hospital all the time to accompany my sis.
I think that's why my sis choose to marry him.
hahahaha..
Although he is not the best,
But he treats her as she is the best for him.
Care for her,
Although sometimes I just can't get used of his anger. =P
But can see easily,
He loves my sis.
And so to their kids.
=)

P.S: Happy Family~
        HuLalalalalla~ =D 

Love In The Air~

Everyone is talking about Valentine's Day.
Everyone is thinking whether to give present to the one they admire or not.
Everyone is wondering whether the person will like it or not.
And seems like teachers don't care about Form 5 students who are in a relationship now.
They are like just close one eye and let it be.
Since it's Form 5 now.
Valentine's Day.
A day for everyone to confess their feeling to the one that always on their minds. 
But what if the one is single?
Together Alone Day! =)
It sounds unfair to who that are single.
Some friends just decided to give each other present since they have no so called 'lover'.
There's pretty much couples in our school actually.
So,
I think Valentines' Day will be a fun day.
Seeing them give each other present,
It's actually kinda sweet! =)
Just hope that they will gain happiness from each other.
Valentine's Day definitely not my day.
HAHAHA.
I don't really think the day is that important.
Since I have no partner.
Kinda awkward,
It sounds like I'm jealous!
hahahaha!
But yea,
Just happy to see those couples smile. =)
 
P.S: Hope that everyone will always be happy,
        Not only just at Valentine's Day.
        =)

Live.

When someone else mentions about his name,
Everyone will automatically turns and look at me.
What are they expecting?
A sad face?
Or telling them,
Yea,
I still like him,
But we have been strange for 1 year plus.
From the close relationship till now.
Even we just standing in front of each other,
But just act like we din't see each other,
Continue talking with the one besides us,
Then walked pass.
Sometimes just curious about it,
Did he realizes I actually had stunned for a second?
Did he realizes I'm actually acting like I don't care?
I don't know.
What if the answer is NO?
It must be great.
Then atleast I can just give up easily.
Although I think I will stand and stood at the same point.
There's rarely hope or dream in real life now.
Hope just break easily.

Just telling myself,
I'm living for myself,
Not only for others.
Not like without you,
Then my life will become lightless.
Not like without you,
Everyday will be like in hell.
Maybe there's something changed in my life.
Maybe some of my habits just changed because of you.
Maybe there's always some shadows of you around me.
But yea,
You left me,
That's a fact.
No one can change it.
So,
Live Life! =D

Hope

Seldom share a new post everyday like mad nowadays.
Some feelings fading away slowly day by day.
Not going to live like a fool now.
Not gotta shed a fool of tears now.
Smile everyday no matter how tired.
Listen to song everyday like there's no tomorrow.
Form 5 is totally different when it compares to Form 4.
Endless homework waiting for us.
Everyone seems to turn more hardworking,
But I just go opposite.
I become more lazy.
Just hope that I can change my attitude sooooon.

Don't know whether the decision that I made is the right one or not.
But it's too late to change my mind.
We used to talk about this before.
But at the last year of our secondary school life,
I made it,
But the situation just kind of awkward.
It's actually good that you're not there,
I can sit more comfortable in the class.
I'm actually thinking,
Seems this year is the last year,
Why don't just put all the sad things away,
Friends that rarely talk after having some misunderstand,
Just forget about everything and be close again.
2 people who used to be in a relationship,
Just change the relationship to friendship.
Nothing is better than friendship seriously.
It can really last forever.
Wanna be a sweet friend to everyone I like,
Have a good image for each other in the last year.

When we turn more mature, 

Everything will goes right.
The way we think will become more rasional.
Don't because of anger, 

And spoil the situation.

God bless! =) 

Friendship V.S Relationship

Those promises that we made last time, do you still remember? 

Friendship is just too good to be true.
But what when there's someone who does not really treat you as a friend?
And you don't really know about the one,
Yet you can't trust the one with your heart.
Then something might happen.
Misunderstanding.
Like example,
She don't really know what kind of person are you.
She heard something from others,
Then slowly she will trusts it without asking the truth.
Soon there will be a distance between both of you.
You can't say anything although you know there's something goes wrong.
The best friend relationship turns to stranger.
No 'Hi' when you meet each other.
No smile on each other faces when they meet face to face.
No conversation.
No even eyes contact.
But when those things already turn true,
Either you wanna explain,
Or just keep quiet seeing your friend slowly close with another friend instead of you.

I dream to have a good relationship.
As in boy and girl.
A person who can at least take care of me,
A person who can see me at the corner instead of staring at those shiny girls.
A person who lend me his shoulder when I needed.
A person who I can put 100% effort on him or even more than that.
I seriously think you're the one who I can depend on.
Just right after all the bad things happened.
It's Form 5 now.
Everything just didn't goes right.
We are still remain the strange feeling.
How are you?
Survive in the first class I think it's not that difficult for you.
You just have to do your best and there will be a good results.
I know you can do it.
Just like what you told me last time.
I can do it if I want.
It's the last year we both staying in a same school.
After this year,
I don't think I have much time you see you.
I don't know what will happen to me,
I don't know what kind of feeling my heart will have.
But I know,
Now,
Atleast now,
I'm still looking at you from far far away.
Like I didn't.

P.S: I have my own ATM card today.
        My salary is inside!
        =D 

No Love.

Even though I think I can't live without you,

But when time passes day after day,
Time told me that I am able to do it.
Even though I think there's be no smile on my face without you,
But there's a lot of things are important for me that can make me smile.
Even though I think you're the only one who can relight the light in my eyes,
But when the relationship gone,
I know there's a lot of people who I can rely on.
Even though I think I will still stay by your side no matter what,
But when I realized how tired is it,
I think my heart are not strong enough to handle anything that can hurt me once more.A

I'm  wondering for the reason of the ending,
But I know there's no an answer for me,
Because I'm remaining silent.
I don't want to talk about this topic anymore.
Now I'm strong enough to not to cry for it anymore.
And I soon think this is not that much important for me anymore.
Without you,
The world is still running.
Without you,
The time still passes.
Without you,
The sky still remains blue.
Without you,
I think I'm fine now.
I think I get used to it now,
The world without you.

P.S: You were a part of my life.
        You are an amazing memories in my life.
        You will be a good friend if there's no relationship happened before.

It Will Rain

If you ever leave me, baby
Leave some morphine at my door
Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have
We don't have it anymore
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walking out the door
Cause there''ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
I'll never be your mother's favourite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eyes
If I was in their shoes
I'd be doing the same thing
Saying there goes my little girl
Walking with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand

Well little darling watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine
Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
Don't you say
Goodbye
Don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain