Charming! ;)

Mood Swing recently.
Not too over but just a little bit.
Even me myself also don't really know the reason why. 

Maybe last time there's a lot of personal problems in my head.
And now I'm kinda enjoying my freedom?
I'm really free now, 

Mentally.

But I think my friends are somehow in troubles now.
Wanna help them so much but I can do nothing.

So yea,
Just MENTALLY support them.
Hope everything will goes well soon.
Hope everything will be better.
They are actually a perfect team, 

They do care each other very much,

But they don't know how to express their caring through actions.
They just keep on keeping their words in heart,
Just like they think they will know each other's mind SILENTLY.
Seriously,

There's no such thing unless they already be with each other like 10 years time.
Learn to tell the one you love what you really need,
What you really want,
What you really hope.
COUPLE is one kind of challenge.
A huge challenge.
You have to be super patient,
You have to always control your mind,
You have to always think about the one you love before doing anything.
Learn to forgive.

However,
I just think that I'm more suitable to be in single.
HAHAHA!
Although I love to be protect,
Love to be care of.
ANYWAY!
I got a new hobby!
Staring at someone I think he's quite good! =P
I hope to see him with her!
Please!
Talk to her more often! 

hahahaha! 

So that I can see their interaction! =D

P.S: He is really good looking! Especially when he smiles! =DDDDDDDDD

STILL ALIVE!

I NEED YOU,
BABY I'M NOT A MONSTER.
I think I'm sick,
I think I'm sick.
Long long time ago since I wrote the last post.
Guess you're no longer my worry.
'Can't live without you' is a lie.
a HUGE lie.
I live everyday before I had met you.
Well.
Honestly I didn't say that before. 

ALIVE TOUR IN MALAYSIA is what on my mind.
IT fully booked my mind!
I said before,
I will go whenever wherever it held on and at.
So YG has released the date.
OCTOBER 27!
Few days before SPM.
I think I gotta hardcore study before this day.
BIGBANG worth it!

I shall fall in love once again to continue my blogger.
HAHAHA!
Have no inspiration to start blogging these few days.
K-POP, K-DRAMA all the time.
I usually blogging only when I'm feeling down.
So,
I think I'm happy now. =)
Unlike last time,
Seriously,
Emotional to the max.
I just dislike that 'ME'.
I don't understand the 'ME'.
Atleast now I'm fine.

P.S: LIVE LIFE! NO REGRET!
        So attending Alive Tour in Malaysia is a MUST! ;)
        If not it will be a HUGE HUGE HUGE regret! 

No More Last Chance

Talk about you with my lovely darling.
A conclusion just pop out on my mind.
Without trying hard to figure out.
I think I'm used to what you are to me,
Used to the way you are.
Used to those things you give to me.
And now we are apart,
everything just disappear together with you.
No more special thingy happens in my life,
I think it's quite hard to accept in short time.
Without talking face-to-face for almost one and half year.

The feeling will fades slowly.

P.S: I have deleted all the messages from you that I save. 

        Everything related about you in my phone,
        I have deleted.
       

Blue heart.

Dream.
Is it the ending of the dream is what you are willing in real life?
And yet you can't get it.
It's been a long time since I dreamed about you.
I think it happened because of my two 'best' friends.
They just did something hilarious during tuition. 
And maybe because of the thing I heard.
I'm not sure that what I heard is what exactly happened. 
I don't know what kind of reaction you're showing.
But just,
I can't bear it.
I rather you treat me like a person you don't know.
Hmmm,
You actually treat a person you don't know nicer.
So yea,
Just treat me like how you always do.
Like seriously,
This topic is a tough lesson in my life.
Everytime I fall inside this endless deep hole,
I have to ask myself to climb up and stop thinking about it.
I don't really know the reason why we are apart from the beginning.
But I'm not going to figure out.
It's so tired.
I can't bear to face this problem again.
I'm a coward.
I admit.
At least,
I'm fine now.
But I haven put down yet.
So far.
I know it clearly.
If I already moved on,
I won't be avoiding you.
I won't be what I'm now.
I wonder,
if you are hurt like me.

14.03.2012

<3

Heard that my baby nephew has came to the world this morning when I woke up.
It's like finally.
He wanna come out and say HI to the world.
Everyone of this family is talking about this baby boy.
I think my niece just get jealous. 

hahaha..
Since everyone is putting attention on this new born baby.
Her face expression changes whenever we mention about her new born brother.
However,
The baby is sooooo cute! =D
He is 3.12KG heavy.
But he just looks extremely mini size to us.
Is it every babies have a pair of big eyes?
Since their faces are small~ =P
Anyway,
I'm gonna see him everyday.
Hope he is not that naughty~
If not,
Seriously,
ME, the aunt sure get headache again.

I love the way how my brother-in-law stays by my sis's side.
He stays at the hospital all the time to accompany my sis.
I think that's why my sis choose to marry him.
hahahaha..
Although he is not the best,
But he treats her as she is the best for him.
Care for her,
Although sometimes I just can't get used of his anger. =P
But can see easily,
He loves my sis.
And so to their kids.
=)

P.S: Happy Family~
        HuLalalalalla~ =D 

Love In The Air~

Everyone is talking about Valentine's Day.
Everyone is thinking whether to give present to the one they admire or not.
Everyone is wondering whether the person will like it or not.
And seems like teachers don't care about Form 5 students who are in a relationship now.
They are like just close one eye and let it be.
Since it's Form 5 now.
Valentine's Day.
A day for everyone to confess their feeling to the one that always on their minds. 
But what if the one is single?
Together Alone Day! =)
It sounds unfair to who that are single.
Some friends just decided to give each other present since they have no so called 'lover'.
There's pretty much couples in our school actually.
So,
I think Valentines' Day will be a fun day.
Seeing them give each other present,
It's actually kinda sweet! =)
Just hope that they will gain happiness from each other.
Valentine's Day definitely not my day.
HAHAHA.
I don't really think the day is that important.
Since I have no partner.
Kinda awkward,
It sounds like I'm jealous!
hahahaha!
But yea,
Just happy to see those couples smile. =)
 
P.S: Hope that everyone will always be happy,
        Not only just at Valentine's Day.
        =)

Live.

When someone else mentions about his name,
Everyone will automatically turns and look at me.
What are they expecting?
A sad face?
Or telling them,
Yea,
I still like him,
But we have been strange for 1 year plus.
From the close relationship till now.
Even we just standing in front of each other,
But just act like we din't see each other,
Continue talking with the one besides us,
Then walked pass.
Sometimes just curious about it,
Did he realizes I actually had stunned for a second?
Did he realizes I'm actually acting like I don't care?
I don't know.
What if the answer is NO?
It must be great.
Then atleast I can just give up easily.
Although I think I will stand and stood at the same point.
There's rarely hope or dream in real life now.
Hope just break easily.

Just telling myself,
I'm living for myself,
Not only for others.
Not like without you,
Then my life will become lightless.
Not like without you,
Everyday will be like in hell.
Maybe there's something changed in my life.
Maybe some of my habits just changed because of you.
Maybe there's always some shadows of you around me.
But yea,
You left me,
That's a fact.
No one can change it.
So,
Live Life! =D