CRY.

I really don't know what are they thinking about.
Won't they feel hurt if they listen the same thing from me If they were me?
Can just like care of my feeling?
I am a HUMAN also!
I got FEELING!
Just scold whenever they like.
Don't you think that I don't wanna be a good girl?
It's just unfair!!!!!
So damn fucking unfair!
Whatever thing need to do then just call my name.
Am I a maid?
I know I should do it.
But just can't ask in a polite way?!
He no need to do anything But me?!
OMG!!!
I seriously feel like disappear now!
What for got good result?!
USELESS wat!
Just sleep during class.
Simply write for exam.
Then they can scold with those reasons.
TODAY I'M SO FREAKING PISSED!!
Because of HIM..
Because of THEM.
Serious shit!
The SUCKEST life ever!!! 

*# Y #*

I told you not to avoid.
But the one who avoiding now is me.
Don't you think I'm just crazy?
I stare at you,
When you turn to me, I look down.
My hand is shaking, my heartbeat become faster.
My mind blank out, and I scolding myself inside my heart.
Maybe I think too much, you are not looking at me.
Just I wish that you're.
I walk to another side, I look at another side.
Then suddenly,
Something come out on my mind.
I smile when you hug me like a kid.
I smile when you hold my hand.
I smile when you write those funny things inside my note book.
I smile when you don't know what to do after I make fun of you.
I smile when you try to count how many seconds I can stare at you.
I smile when you are bored during class and look at my side.
I smile when I ask for your help to complete my essay and you done it for me.

I smile after you play Wedding Dress in the middle of the call.
I smile when I heard the 3 words form you.

Still got alot alot alot.
Yea,
You make me smile easily.
And what I did is just breaking your heart.
I'm bad enough I think.
We were so close to each other.
Yea, 'were'.
We chat with each other till midnight.
We message each other till run out of credit.
We call each other everyday.
We stay together everyday.

 And now, all in fiction.

You must be happier than last time now.
Because no one break your heart again.
You can play with your bros without caring my feel anymore.
I dreamed a dream,
That you coming back to me.
The same dream repeat at another day.

But I know,
After I wake up, it was just a dream.
It's just I wish that you will come back to me.
I laugh at myself.
What a funny person in this world.

P.S: Can't you see? I'm still loving you.

       Because...
       I Love You.

frown, cry, chill, smile.

L.O.V.E

 

Don't you ever cry for a person who you like or love?

Don't you said the first 'I Love You' to the one you like or love? 

Don't you feel hurt when you know that the person is leaving you?

Don't you miss the scenes that U and the person inside smiling happily?

Don't you have the courage to let go when the person say it's time to split?

Will you give everything you had to the one you like or love?

Will you try to do anything just to make the one you like or love smile?

Will you wait for the person to call you and ask the person to put down the phone before you after the call?

Will you give the person a smile when you and him/her meet after a long time?

Don't you think LOVE is just complicated?

No one seems to know what is love.

Teenagers are too young to talk about love.

But how about adults?

Are they really do understand the real meaning of love and take the right action?

I don't think so.

It have different meaning from different mind.

For me,

Love is a tough lesson.

It contains sweet, sour, and bitter.

It can make you smile easily,

It let you shed your tears easily.

Just for no reason.

I don't really speak out 'LOVE' easily, even though to my family.

So it's difficult for me to say it out, even though I really mean it.

I care for the one I love's feeling secretly, but I don't know what to do when they sad.

I don't really like to talk, but I'm noisy with non-sense.

But when the person I love ask me what happened, I found a strength and release all my feeling towards him.

Acted too strong, actually just show that how weak are you.

I did it last time, and maybe now?

I need someone to care for me, hold me up and make me smile.

But everyone just leaving me further and further.

P.S: Please, at least treat me as your friend, don't act cold in front of me. I'm sick of it and can't stand for it anymore. You smile to my friends, but how about me? I'm just a stranger who you liked before? Nothing more?

Black Rose with thorns, just too far yet too close.

U and I

I feel like I'm doing something really stupid.
I can't figure out what's the meaning behind the thing I did.
I'm just throwing a stone on my foots.
SPLIT.
I do know what's the meaning.
Everything should be end. No more chance. No more dream.
That's the ending I made, I think.
But what for I still standing at the same position?
I saw you, I feel happy, and also sad.
Happy that you still around me.
Sad that you are not being with me anymore.
Do you know that?
I search for you everyday.
I felt like crying when I don't know anything about you,
and yet I have to know from others.
My tears just can't stop now.
It's long time since I cry so hard.
I really can't control myself now.
These few months, I feel like dying.
Everyday doing the same thing again and again.
I tell myself.
I can move on. I can move on.
But I still not moving even though just one little step.
I don't wanna to move on.
How can the gap bewteen you and me become so far now?
I smiling and click your name.
I brave enough to enter.
But I end up tearing in the middle of the dark night.
I fall so deep.
All I can see is darkness.
Why?
I don't wanna memories.
It's just killing me once and once again.
I don't want anything now.
Please just take all away from my life.
P.S: I do still have the feeling towards you.I don'want the situation we facing now. I don't wan't to force myself again. I don't want. I'm so tired.

Black & White

30 seconds,

During the 30 seconds, a lot of things can happen.

Maybe miracle happens, thing goes on and it surprises you.

Maybe sadness occurs, you will never ever want to keep it in you mind.

Or maybe nothing will happen, just remain the same.

But during the 30 seconds, I can feel my heartbeat, I'm still alive.

It makes my day. Even though I still having exam.

Can't imagine that I smiling when I walked back to my class.

Being a human, I'm lost.

I don't really know what I want, what I need.

Someone told me, give me advices, but I ignore it.

Maybe I'm afraid, or maybe I don't want to step out of my own world.

A black and white world, fulfill with memories, negative and pointless.

Seeing others, their world are full of colour and wonderful.

How about mine?

I think it still waiting someone to fill in the colour.

I don't really understand what's the point of smiling now.

I smile when everyone laugh,

I expressionless when they smile.

HaHa, what's goes wrong now?

I do smile a lot at school, when I be with my friends.

But when i come home, smile leave me.

I don't know what to do.

So, I keep on finding something to attract me.

At least I won't be so lifeless.

I need a strength to lift me up.

Anyway, I'm not negative-minded. =)

P.S: Cheong Pei Ling, Ms awesome! Get well soon! My darling.. hahahha.. I do still wanna hang out with you!!! =)

EXAM! XD

Having some suffer time during exam.
Although I don't have the mood to study for it,
But still need to flip the book for awhile, let some words and formulas absorb in my brain.
When I got the paper, my mind totally blank out.
SO! It's time to simply circle answers and write out acceptable answers.
I can't imagine the time when I know my results, most probably will heart attack. =P
No more good results I think. =(
Good student is hard to be. =) So, I choose to be a lazy student.
Been distracted by the computer, so I can't even concentrate to study for exam.
But! LIKE I CARE.
I just hope the exam end as soon as possible.
So i able to play and have fun during holidays with my dearest friends.
So many plan to go.
Many place, trip, even gathering also. =D
I can't wait for it now!
Let's forget about the results and have fun!
=DDDDD
P.S: Still got 2 more days to go. Chinese paper was hard like shit! The teacher become a liar again. She said it is easy. ><

Don't cry

LOVE seems to change so easily,
In place of our own greed, a painful scar is left,
Gotta let you go
And please don’t cry
I guess I was not really the person for you
I couldn’t hold back my stupid heart
Which pained you
And please don’t cry
Here is the end for the both of us,
And until the world would allow our love then,
It’s okay baby please don’t cry,
This long journey is about to end.
But someday, we will meet again,
In the next life, we will see each other again
Everyday, we are blinded by our anger,
What we were fighting about every minute,
I cried every night,
Baby I cried
All the long nights
I stayed up late crying,
I spent them all alone
Baby I cried
Here is the end for the both of us,
And until the world would allow our love then,
It’s okay baby please don’t cry,
This long journey is about to end.
But someday, we will meet again,
In the next life, we will see each other again
Sometimes, when tears come to me,
I remember our beautiful memories
I hope that you won’t be hurt more,
And please don’t cry
It’s okay baby please don’t cry,
This long journey is about to end.
But someday, we will meet again,
In the next life, we will see each other again

P.S: another beautiful melody. =) The lyrics are so real.